With a big smile on my face, I went into my favorite bookstore…DIWAN… as a child breaking into TOYS R US!
Holding few books into my hands.. going here and there to silence my hunger for reading… I was wheezing past the children section when I saw HIM…
Sitting comfortably on a huge chair.. dressed in red and white… a small girl sitting on his lap ..with one hand he touched her hair softly ..with the other hand he had a book..he was reading to her…. I froze as if I saw Jack the ripper!
After couple of seconds, I realized that I draw attention of some young men and women around me staring curiously at the short stubby lady gazing at Santa Clause!
I walked out and bought some books, then could not shake back the feeling that I need to sit on his lap and tell him what I want… I was back to where he is sitting… the girl now has finished asking what she wants and she left..he was alone… reading into one of the children’s books and rocking in his chair… his belly reaching up to his chin… his glasses on the tip of his nose… I stood there frozen… not having the guts to go and tell him what I feel … scared secretly that I would have a reply like “hey lady.. you know am just paid to dress like that” or “hey lady ..grow up.. there is no Santa”… I could have never lived to hear those words… I wanted to believe in Santa… I just cant loose faith in him… I stood far away smiling … talking to him secretly.. Santa.. I want my miracle.. I don’t have one request… I want my miracle… you just know what I am going through and I trust that you will give me a great miracle…..
I walked away as the bookstore is getting crowded… .. I walked past the streets thinking how my sighting has lighted my heart… gave me a new dimension… did I see God?! why does it feel wonderful?!
I was feeling a bit sad not to be able to talk to him and to have him promise my miracle… the fresh air touched my face gently… I kept walking… … what miracle did I want so badly? …..Healing?..... blessings? Children?....it took less than 30 seconds to decide……nah… I did not care… I have all what I want… there is nothing that I would want more…mmmm…. I have all my miracles… nothing is missing… thanks Santa … that’s all what I want…
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